Wednesday, November 18, 2009

A Fork in the Road...A really big one.

So im here in tokyo. Money, energy, health all waning in their own way. The money primarily is what is running thin, at least thinner than expected. Health wise I'm ok, as OK as you can be after pulling countless switches on your body for 3 months..

3 months of Living on begger diets, eating banquets, cold climates, warm climates, wet climates, smog, dust. Drink tap water, dont drink tap water, Eat heavy protein potatoe meals, no here we eat only rice & fish. Its 5am, its 5pm, its midnight and we just finished dinner with alcohol, caffeine, and who knows what else. Sleep here, sleep there, sleep alone, sleep with one eye open, sleep cold, sleep on a train a boat a plane, dont sleep... 


My body seemed to end up pretty confused. But I am proud to say it only got sick, and barely so, once. (knock on wood)
That was a bit of a rant but I think thats how the body is feeling. And the energy levels are pretty down. Egypt was a huge highlight of this trip and now its on the chopping blocks and I'm not exactly crushed about that. And thats my dilemma..Egypt or USA. So, there is an internal struggle going on as I try to decide which way to go. If you had a microphone in my mind it may sound something like this..
Eastbound Taj(Pro-return toUSA, which is east from here): We've had a good run, time to pack up and return to the comfort of home. Money is running out, we're tired, maybe sick..time to get back to comfort. 
Westbound Taj(Pro-continue to Cairo): Are you kiddin? Next is the pyramids! One of the main reasons you came out here! The flight is about the same and Cairo shouldnt be too expensive. You just feel bad now because you're homesick; it'll pass.
Eastbound Taj(USA is east from here): True, we have had homesickness before, but this is different. I think we're just ready to be home. Besides, wouldn't you rather come back when we have more money and energy? When we can do Cairo right rather than on a budget?
Westbound Taj(Pro-Cairo): Who knows when that will be?? Live now and in the moment. Planning for the future just gives things more time to go wrong. Take advantage of the current opportunity.
Eastbound Taj(USA is east from here): We know we want to return to Greece at some point. Egypt would be easily tied in then. Even Turkey too. Would be an awesome 2~3 week trip. To do that, we need to get a job and get money...which will take time, but the best way to assure that happens is to return in a decent financial position to facilitate the job hunt.
Westbound Taj(Pro-Cairo): OK, fine. But this is something you said you would do! Don't you have a sense of pride to complete this? Seeing sights on a budget is fine; we've done that a bunch so far. How can you go back without completing what you set out to do?
Eastbound Taj(USA is east from here): Ah, that may have gotten me to reconsider a few weeks ago, but at this point, 100 days in (as of Dec 3), how could I be disappointed in how far I went. Plus if I go this way, it is a real Around the World Trip.
Westbound Taj(Pro-Cairo): Just one last city, that's all and you'll complete what we planned out. Meet some people there, chill for a bit, and return to the US as planned.
Eastbound Taj(USA is east from here): It does sound easy that way, and maybe even worth it...As for the plan, deviating from such a path is just part of the freedom of the Road. That said, the pyramids are tempting..plus it would be great to visit somewhere so different from Europe and the US..
Westbound Taj(Pro-Cairo): Yes...but the money.. there will be other opportunities perhaps..


Well, that's the bulk of the debate in my head..no answers yet. Im sure an answer will come soon.. I'm going to a park with some tea to wait for it.

...I promise i haven't gone crazy

3 comments:

  1. Ok, This is a great debate with points well taken on both sides. You have the right approach now since you have fed your mind the logic, now take a breath, meditate and let your mind do what it has been trained to do without forcing the decision. Have confidence, you will make the right one.

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  2. you hear that fats!? that's dad doing the voice of an animated bonzai tree.

    *style point: i like how both voices switched POV in your head.

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  3. I love this entry. Hang in there chump it'll come to you! Plus no matter what you choose there are pros.

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